i am happy i thght but then y am i weeping.....???

Sometimes its hard to accept and sometimes not, may be that u dnt wanna to. But its truth, that
u had to be lucjy to find someone who can make u laugh. Five long years , and after that u just add someone a friend just bcz that someone was ur schoolmate and that to younger than you.
Not even sure of taht person remebering u. But when u come to know abt that the person still remebers u and that feeling makes u that thing makes u to be on the top of this world.

Well not wasting that much of the words , first I wanna thanks orkut (the great social networking site) , which made me to meet that personality SONAKSHI[sorry yar if i spelled it wrong :)]. Yah taht person is a girl , but before any dirty thing comes by ur mind will want to convey you that she is ma sis.Well being in this relation at the time of school was a simple ordinary things. But truly after these long span years, it feels great that this 5 year time wasn't that enough. May be this relation had not grown any how stronger but yah for sure, this relation has not lost its existence. A positive point to be that lucky isn't that? :)


Well sorry SONAKSHI I ma recalling and going to those old days but yah thats true that it was really nice and great to hear paji from ur side. Hmm ...now I was just mentioning to recall those old days. But before that I hope I was that desperate lonely in my own world sorrounded by just some friends and some attitudi girls but whateva talking to you helped me to weigh off the heavy weight on my heart and it felt nice that after a long time someone said me to be happy.
Seriusly the last words of taht chat u said
"khush rahio"
These have been a lot great for me. It made me remember me taht sis whom i lost(u knw very well).Seriusly, SONAKSHI i am feeling regret of a thing now a thing can't say , but i am BIG BELIEVER of the fact
"WHatever HaPPens HappENS FoR soME puRPose"
and our meeting on orkut nand then at that place nakodar ,nothing planned ,nothing expected but still that day has a signifinance. RAksha BANdhan,,,,this day will be a memorable one.
Don't know what u may think off , dn't know how u will react but truly i am feeling for that.

That was a day when i refused to tie up rakhi from u, u brought in for me(i knw u must have remebered).I know it was SEP mid but truly I am sorrry fr that. Why i refused that day,one reason was that I wasn't ready for such a responsibilty(taht reltion always matterd fr me y will tell u that reason sometime) or may be it was a mistake whateva but i am sorry from my heart's depth for that . I may guess how much it may have hurt. If not more a bit for sure.

Now I will not say this thing taht I will not refuse taht option now but can only ask if u can do that favour(rakhi tieing) for me. U may thing it a brother's request rather than order.I am ready for dieing for this only. Truly, I am weeping , I am bad I know, But I am not taht much sis.
May be i did a big mistake their and thsi is a second chance fr me to improve. Tahts why may be we met on taht day.

May be this is ma e-diary but still thats truth.Sometime its too late to realise a mistake but whateva I wanna say and I said.

May be I be having some life to live upon happily, after loisng ma sis and love.I am alone except having a few gud frnds.Ur decision may help to reduce this loneliness nd if not no probs I am used to it.

It feels great that u remeber me but still it makes me feel hard.....
truly after a long time ,i am happy i thgt but then y am i weeping....???

Its ur life ur decision, just ur decision. but plz my mistake is not taht big.