a friend in need.BAwa....A GREAT DAY...18 Sep 09

Hello all , HOO…its 18^th of september and this day has been full of joys excitement and a lot more I can’t just explain in a single word of mere a few alphabets. Today the day started as normal, getting up rushing for reaching the class , and then all boring practs and lectures. Thing I loved today was the good relationships coming up through. Well as being comitted to my dearer project mate MOHALI , I and ANIT have to go to Chandigarh for that project propose. First of all, after attending the last lab , me and Mohali went to my room for getting my sweet lappy where we met Anuj and he just made me wait for chtecking the result of ISMT.

After that we(me and mohali) met Anit and we three moved to the bus stop of Chandigarh.After reaching at Chd , we frst went to the eaast guys where they said us to wait for some minutes. At the same minute Anitpal wanted to go for “susu”. And UH SAI JI , it was unbelieveble that we roamed around so much and he got the palce to that so timely and greatly chosen (he went into the gravity’s bathroom ) . Then atonce our mood changed to goto to KFC to eat chicken. And we frst ordered 9 pieces and then again 9.

after that on the way to that institute , we met a few juniors just in front of the gravity and they forced me to that dance floor. Anit too came there with me alongside mohali.

I refused to drink as I had to keep a promise anyhow.Anit drink arnd 4 pegs and it was after that his show.

after taht we went to gthe insti..

(YET TO COMPLETE)

I am loving the one I am just now

Hmmmm.....back here after a long time....nothing much to be doing although but yet a lot there....the degree of mine coming to an almost end...Into the final days of the final sem its is feeling being a lot great . Well on the one hand the most great thing I had here in these days is that I have got a placement in hand. Well there are a lot setbacks of that company being small, froud, BLAH!! BLAH!!!! But for me the thing which matters is that amng those 100+ students who sit into the placement drive I was on the 24 which were chosen.(I was not going to do a job anyhow).Well leaving profession aside and coming back to social things now, truly I changed maself , dedicated my full attention towards friends but whteva the most happening thing is that I have got around the greatest friends around and I am loving it being here. I am loving being doing nothing around nescafe, canteen, sharing stuffs with friends.Truly I have been never in a relationship (with a girl only)and I am single with my friends.What the case both are,compared by me, I will rank ma friends better ,,,uh sorry,,, THE BEST,,,....I am lovng being placed, loving being with friends and thats it.I am loving the one I am just now.OH SAIJI may this time be stopped just here.But not...:P

a day of yes and no....but at the end one wth tears in eyes and smile on face...

Its 27 th of AUG ..thursday...Today its the brthday of Nikhil. Well as usual the birthday in Hostel went through like the same. A lot of birthday bumps, and then palying with water and aftre that those all cutting the cake stuff. This time , Shrey also got stuck in with bumps, avei hi. :)
But the real birthsay was being celebrated though after that. A half of B.P. , fiev friends , 5 galsses , a kukure packet and 101-102 room balcony. Again a lot talks and within this began the talk of going to Shimla on thursday.Time is just around 1:30 midnight. And all went good and the final decision ended at the place that we all are going and tahts final.I took all that seiusly and yah thats again my mistake :( .They all were drunk and I believed may be BEcoz of the thing that I was also drunk that I believd whateva again my mistake :(.
I called DAD and asked fr money. They are coming to mohali bcz I was going to Shimla . I fought at my house and now in the morning they had their own excuses of not going there. Its ok yar. I can't tell them this all and truly why should I tell, may be they can't understand.
But whateva went I was happy the whole day , I thought of giving Nikhil a gift too and I will surely do that. But the thing is that I ma hurt . My dad is missing his bank today , the money was being put after a long fight b/w me and my parents . And whats the f**king result. All are going back to their houses, and I , what can I do now? Going home is an option in front of me but how can I. I hurted mom/dad and the reason fir that is now gone in to the ashes.
Truly saying its hurting hard deep inside me and yah I am truly feeling f**ked up now.
I want to weep but cant . OH GOD !!! I need friends and i got these all but now what are these things happening around?
Why are these things happening around?
But just a moment befre Manik came here and you know what happened ??
They all are ready to go their and it is feeling really like on the top of the world that my friends are doing this all for me only. WOW !!1 great na to be atleast a bit for somenone,,,,,
No matter now we go or not . I can hear of DAD's critics no matter , I have got great frnds in return of that.
Will go home 2mrw. I am happy and I am gng to sleep.
Gud Nite .

nice time ...great friends....awesome days.... :)

Hmmm..
back in 7th sem and as expected time running quite fst then expected...seriusly its been 17 days since being in this em and this went like a blink of the eye... :)

I am proud of this. Proud of being having the worlds gretest friends with me. These are the best I have ever got.
MISHRA
ANKA
SHREY
MANIK
MAMA
NIKHIL


WOW!!!

I ALWAYS DREMT OF HAVING JUST one GREAT friend but it seems gret to have so much arnd me, Today I was not well as I got infection in ma eye , but i was more happy of the fact of those who cared and spent money on my medicine without even talking of money.
Great na , tahts it I have friends I have atleast after this long era and long years, after so much up-downs in my degree, I am atleast stable to have all those so close to me.
I am happy to be like this. I am so lucky to have all these with me.

Love u friends . You all ahve made my this degree remombrable and taht to life long. I love u all.
WILL MISS EVERY THING WE DID,,,

FROM GOING TO LALI TO SMOKING AND DRIINKING IN OUR OWN BALCONY....

MAy u all get ur life's aim
have a long life nad happy one,
take care
cheerss..>!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am happy i thght but then y am i weeping.....???

Sometimes its hard to accept and sometimes not, may be that u dnt wanna to. But its truth, that
u had to be lucjy to find someone who can make u laugh. Five long years , and after that u just add someone a friend just bcz that someone was ur schoolmate and that to younger than you.
Not even sure of taht person remebering u. But when u come to know abt that the person still remebers u and that feeling makes u that thing makes u to be on the top of this world.

Well not wasting that much of the words , first I wanna thanks orkut (the great social networking site) , which made me to meet that personality SONAKSHI[sorry yar if i spelled it wrong :)]. Yah taht person is a girl , but before any dirty thing comes by ur mind will want to convey you that she is ma sis.Well being in this relation at the time of school was a simple ordinary things. But truly after these long span years, it feels great that this 5 year time wasn't that enough. May be this relation had not grown any how stronger but yah for sure, this relation has not lost its existence. A positive point to be that lucky isn't that? :)


Well sorry SONAKSHI I ma recalling and going to those old days but yah thats true that it was really nice and great to hear paji from ur side. Hmm ...now I was just mentioning to recall those old days. But before that I hope I was that desperate lonely in my own world sorrounded by just some friends and some attitudi girls but whateva talking to you helped me to weigh off the heavy weight on my heart and it felt nice that after a long time someone said me to be happy.
Seriusly the last words of taht chat u said
"khush rahio"
These have been a lot great for me. It made me remember me taht sis whom i lost(u knw very well).Seriusly, SONAKSHI i am feeling regret of a thing now a thing can't say , but i am BIG BELIEVER of the fact
"WHatever HaPPens HappENS FoR soME puRPose"
and our meeting on orkut nand then at that place nakodar ,nothing planned ,nothing expected but still that day has a signifinance. RAksha BANdhan,,,,this day will be a memorable one.
Don't know what u may think off , dn't know how u will react but truly i am feeling for that.

That was a day when i refused to tie up rakhi from u, u brought in for me(i knw u must have remebered).I know it was SEP mid but truly I am sorrry fr that. Why i refused that day,one reason was that I wasn't ready for such a responsibilty(taht reltion always matterd fr me y will tell u that reason sometime) or may be it was a mistake whateva but i am sorry from my heart's depth for that . I may guess how much it may have hurt. If not more a bit for sure.

Now I will not say this thing taht I will not refuse taht option now but can only ask if u can do that favour(rakhi tieing) for me. U may thing it a brother's request rather than order.I am ready for dieing for this only. Truly, I am weeping , I am bad I know, But I am not taht much sis.
May be i did a big mistake their and thsi is a second chance fr me to improve. Tahts why may be we met on taht day.

May be this is ma e-diary but still thats truth.Sometime its too late to realise a mistake but whateva I wanna say and I said.

May be I be having some life to live upon happily, after loisng ma sis and love.I am alone except having a few gud frnds.Ur decision may help to reduce this loneliness nd if not no probs I am used to it.

It feels great that u remeber me but still it makes me feel hard.....
truly after a long time ,i am happy i thgt but then y am i weeping....???

Its ur life ur decision, just ur decision. but plz my mistake is not taht big.

Either discuss ur frnds mistakes or frget them off....

hmmm....
a bit hurt of waht happened in my love life. But whateva , life has to move along its path the same way and with the same speed. But u can do only one thing , just carry on. Its hard to do rather say.

Whatever your condition is... YOU had to be back to fight and stand against this world full of competition.

Well, coming back to where I started. The line I just wrote on the title bar is not just a line, but its a moral truly. I hadn't read it in any good book or taken it from a story. This is the one of the things I myself had learnt in the past 3 years of my own hostel life. Truly, if you sense it its also a
Universal Truth. I had expereinced a lot so that I can atleast set my life an example type story for this particular moral.

And truly saying it took me arnd 3 years in this great hostel to understand and get into the word "FRIEND". But i am atleast happy for that that I have now known about all those.I have been a f**king one that I kept silly-o-silly things about my friends in my mind. And the time I discussed it I found all things sorted out.

Hmm..one whom you don't care about you need not to keep his mistakes in mind and for those whom you care what goes if you bent a bit and have a discussion over.If he/she and you agree upon both of you are great friends and if you can't hard to say buddy but you both were never friends.

And i have realised this thing over that discussion had lead me to a lot way satisfaction always. And may be it was the other one who made me to discuss but thanks to you GAGAN...atleast it gave me a MORAL to learn around,

I said u once na that u had a good place&role in my life, see this is an example of that.(love u buddy for that).

What to say more...a big thanks to all those are friends and to those who were never and only lied.

I learnt this and it took me 3 years to get this thing in my mind. Hope u all try to get this quickly.
THANKS
:)

final sm's frst day...i am in love frst time...ma frst purpose

i am in deprssion ...i dnt knw wat i am dng....i am drunk too much....but i am not taht much...
i loved that grl and i came to knw it at a time that i hardly see her....
i am a f**king a**h**e....i knw i ma a f**du....but wat the f**k a love is a love ...
through ma good frnd ....i got to propose her...but what the f**k she said abt...she is confused...
f**k...she is confused...and i am ruined.....and hence but yah what and why she shld care off....
after all girls ratio is quite less than of boys in India and hence she can have options....

what what will be the result of this....this f**ked up guy will be ruined and be hit in his own a**
so hard....oh GOD ...the word "NO" said by her shld not have been that painful....then this that i am confused ....f**ked....

yaar what the f**k is ma fault.......wat the f**k i had done wth anyone....atleast a no shld not have caused her to pay an income or luxury tax..
and rather it shld have i may have paid it easily...

but yaar how can she judge me ...if nt fit how can she be syaing me unfit...she hardly knows me....
but if this reason is much sufficient to say me unfit ...i can say if she dnt knw me hw can se call me unfit....

a mediocre answer is always an option...

anythng saying like a cancer patient will die in a month will make that patient die too soon...
but hiding it will leave to make him live that month satisfactory...

i amy be saying a bit wrong in emotion
...but wat else....

now thats it tahts final thats the fuck...

I AM IN LOVE
AND I WILL BE ALWAYS with you...

if there is GOD anywhere anyhow...
lets see if taht GOD supports ma love and if not ....

i dnt say a lie that u wre the frst girl in ma life but yah fr sure this thing is
ok u were the last girl in ma life tahts it ....

and i will remember and wait fr u ....

love u so much ma love....

take care....
i am weeping....thanks fr hearing wat i can say....

i will try to be more gud in future....

have a nice life
take care
gud nite..

i cnt say anythng to ma frnd to as he is in between two of us....
he has to answer me and i am waiting fr taht answer....

Oh GOD
this is such a f**king cndtn i am into....
SAI JI
u are ma everythng ....SHOW ME A DIRECTION PLS...

All ALOne iN hSTel...[:(]

hm,,,//...

its unday and may be classes frm 2mrw...
i am here thinking rishikesh being here...but no one i got in here...

well apart frm a bullshit of social sites..i had nothing left to do in here....

I was tense a bit at home of how to break the lock of ma room..??
and
How to shift ma almirah...??


well i am happy that atleast one of those work is out,,
with a bit of DAD's guidance and my work i am able to break that lock...


hmmm...

rest else wasnt having anythng interesting except a few traffic jams at way back to hostel...

i am sitiing here alone and waiting and calling all the oones i can say AS FRIENDS...to just get ma time along or i hope its just now here coming out of ma home air conditioner i am getting to know the importance of all those. I am missing all...i Am missin anka gagan shrey mama jazz...(these being closest to me in the last year or so...) . Some things are strange no....YOu know how much u have them in ur life...may be after passing out ...its ill be hardly messenger or a few calls to be intact....yet i can't tell them where they stand in my life.

I know a few things went wrong many a times amoong us ... But i am happy fr them being wth me and I am happy of not carrying away just a degree frm this college.

A couple of friends , a lot of confidence and above all those great moments i will love to carry on beside with myself whole life...

Missing home too ...its hard after being in a VEHLAPAN level to directly adopt to HOSTEL level.
but its just a way matter of a few days.

thts it ..
will be back sooon tonite ...
if kept in ma senses as ANIT is bringing whisky frm chd....(truly its atleast a profit to me of him gng to bulls eye..thankyou god)...

ok will meet soon...

Tommorow steping in college as super seniors HAHAHA...
seriusly never got how these 3 years rush thru...

thanks
b bye
see soon....

miss you all dear frnds....:(
but it atleast let me knw how much i needed u all...
:)

HELLO ALL BACK AGAIN....:P

hmm
long tym since i being here...

well seriusly i wa total vehla but yet i wasn't having courage to come here and write though.

hmm
rakhi again went gret.

navdeep di and all sis ....
well frst time i gave them gifts frm wat i had earned of maself...


the main bosters in these 2 and a half months is that thru MCI society i got thru ma frst technical
pay .

hmm now a days at the end of completing the php.

plus i am in with reading a book "OFcourse i love you till i find someone else""

gert one
a book which made me weep

feells like i being somewhere there...

baaki all gng gret

things quite gud among wth ma frnds

GAGAN ANKIT
and all

may be it wtked that i wasnt well

i became the way i was when i met and yups
there i see all are wth me ....

yes atleast i go this thng where i was wrng...:)

will miss those two fr u

love u both buddies.....


baaki nothing else
gng last sem will look fr a few good thngs....

baki as god gives,,,....

HAve to get thru gate wth gud percentile ....


bas thats it fr now....

will be regular now .....

ITS MA NEW POEM>>>>



clilk on the pic then it will be clear

ITS MA NEW POEM>>>>

clilk on the pic then it will be clear